dragmedown

Saturday, August 13, 2005

chapter 1

i will never drink again... i will never drink again...i will.... kept on running in my head.
ive already said this to myself many times before, last night was a king-hell of a picture...like those action-stop movie that freeze in your mind and stays in your memory for life.

i always have this feeling after drinking an "Emperador" my worst kind af alcoholic enemy. it betrayed me several times, u know this thing that plays in ure mind while ure drinking... that goes "no im not drunk" , then tommorrow ul never know what the king-hell really had happened,

i opened my right eye, and in years of being intoxicated several times by different bottles of evil spirits, Emperador really had this afterdrunk sort of hung-over-no-effect, that was my feeling this morning. just as when i was about to divot positions i felt a bit dizzy... im aware that the next moment i opened the left eye the whole thing last night would be flashback of a nightmare. and so iwas ready. yeah i remember having a stupid argument about religion something like that, resulted to the person im talking to a bit awful, i didnt mean to deconstruct some egos he had but the situations seems to turn out into brink of ice melting in a quick magma, and he said the words that made his song out of key to my ears.. so i got the two bottles of Emperador brandy, one at my right and the other on my left, i both hold it by the neck and, the bottles seems to have committed a terrible murder that they had been sentenced to death by their own victim. i took a deep breath and crushed both into the ground... then memories stopped, i felt a brisk pain small cut in my toes so i watch it while im lying in my bed, im wondering where it did came from..
the later afternoon told me the story while iwas outside of the place where we had last night
and now i know where the hell i got this cut in my toes.. thats because i gave a full swing kicked from below the stupid table and every thing was history i would rather not want to talk about

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

waking up twice and thanking god its allright

i met a grl and weve talk deep.... we became close... and lovers... and i woke up one morning...
gaze toward her house and ask the people there where she is..
they answered me..
sorry dude she does not exist...
i felt the rain around my body like needles piercing me deep...deeper i cant explain
and suddenly i woke up again...
thank god...
now i love her more 8 hours after because i know she does exist....

Friday, June 17, 2005

nilagnat ako kagabi...bhaket!?

nilagnat ako pucha...nde ako makatulog....bat gnun?...
nagbilang ako ng tupa....
isang tupa...
dalawang tupa...
tatlong tupa...
anak ng tupa!!!!
patulugin mo ko......

Sunday, June 12, 2005

sunday... hehe nagsimba c ako

weeeee nag simba ako...(ang big deal)=( hahahaha kasama ko si conie nagsimba kami sa UST ok lng...first tym ko magsimba na may kasamang grl na kami lng dalawa...
nde na nga ako umiimik sa simbahan bloopers pa din amp... alam nyo ba yung kumukuha ng barya ung naglilibot na may daladalang lalagyan ng pera...un tae tlga un.... dumukot ako sa bulsa...tinignan ako ni conie..(syempre nde ko ipapakita sa kanya na piso lng ang ilalagay ko hahahahahahahahaha) un ...ewan ko ba parang ang lambot ng mga daliri ko ive stretched my hand forward para ilagay ung piso na pinagkatagotago ko baka makita ng iba ....tumalsik ba nman!!!!!!!!!!! pusha!!! so kumalansing... nakita ng madlang people!!!!!! napunta sa ilalim ng upuan sa harapan ko....waw si mars kinuha nman!!! aun sa pagmamadali naumpog pa ...toink!!! ...*ay... aray* hihihihihihihihihi

pagkatapos ng mass pmnta kmi sa noodle haus... para ipagyabang na * uu masarap ung spajety dun!* kaya pagdating dun...umorder si conie ng arros caldo =( ang lame noh!!! ....
pang asar ako...sobra ...pikon na pikon na si conie sa kin hihihihihihihi kung bakit daw pag umiinom syah ng vitamins/centrum lagi syang nahihilo at naantok....sabi ko* hihihihih kasi alam mo kung bakit? kase ung centrum pang tao lng un...dpat iniinom mo thunderbird!!! hahahahahaha* (singkit na yung mata ni kumag sa inis) hahahahahaha ...

well another day na special sa kin...kasama na tong day na to sa mga i rerecall ko pag mag isa ako

" oh no isee
a spider web is tangled up with me"
-coldplay

Friday, June 10, 2005

weee ang lakas ng ulan

tag ulan n nman=) i really miss the 2hour fx ride from makati pauwi ng haus. the traffic.. tpos malamig sa loob ng fx tpos tumutugtog ng coldplay, habang may katabi kang office girl na sobrang cute kaso nde mo nman kilala... at dyahe din magpakilala =( hahahahah, well so kagabi hirap na nman ako matulog... im sitting infront of the window of my room at panoorin ang mga ulan... maya maya nagutom na ko so bumaba ako and bumili ng " ate pabili, pancit canton dalawa ung kulay black" at pabili na din ntong balot =) so aun, nagluto ako ng pancit kanton at nagsindi ng marlboro at matagal na nag desisyon kung red horse bah o san mig light.... para tablan ako ng antok

andami gumugulo sa isip kow... kaya tuloy tinatanong ko si god kung para ba sa akin ung feelings ko ngyun, kase ang wrong tyming nman ata, mabilis lang ako mag ka crush sa grl lalo na pag cute, pero dis tym naninibago ako eh..
unang una nde nman ako nagagandahan sa kanya, and nde ko rin gs2 ung ugali nya maybe because magkaibang magkaiba tlga kmi =( ewan... bat gnun,? naiinlab ako ng walang mahanap na reason ...pinipilit kong isipin kaso wala tlga eh=( ... the first tym i fall is 5 years before pa ata, and nde ko din masabi kung love ngyun, kasi ive been so selfish, nde ko inisip kung anong magpapasaya sa kanya,
pero ngyun naninibago ako.... mas iniisip ko na ung happiness nya more than sa akin,
kaya sguro nde ako makapanligaw, kasi ung isang nanliligaw sa kanya mukang mas ok nman sa kin, and has a stable job and lots a lots of money and matagal na nag iintay sa kanya un.... sa tingin ko mas magiging happy syah dun eh, sana pla nde ko na lng pinaalam sa kanya=(
any weyz... hangat nd2 pa ko sa manlia, ill try my best na mapasaya ko syah in my very own little ways and the best i could, para pag umalis na ko, wala ako pagsisihan kasi ill always carry the words " ginawa ko ang lahat"
alam mo un.... kase , kakaiba tlga eh... nde man lang ako makaramdam ng selfishness sakin...
e kilala ko ang sarili ko... selfish akong tao, wala akong pakialam kung malungkot sila basta ako masaya...
ung mga tipong gnun...
hay.. sa tingin mo blog in love ba ako??

"im going to a nice place, a very very nice place
im going to a nice place, a very very nice place"
-juan pablo dream

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

wala palipas oras lng

nakainom me konti...pewo sa tingin ko nde nman me lasing eh... wala ako magawa ngyun d2... nawiwiwi ako pero nitatamad me tumayo =( hay... tinry ko mag chat. kaso ewan nde ko tlga gs2 mag chat eh... dear blog... jamingan mo nman me ngyun ...kase nalulungkot tlga ako... gs2 ko magsalita pero parang naiilang ako... ayoko sana pansinin ung mga people sa paligid ko . kaya lng bka magalit nman sila =( ...buti n lng kinakausap ako nung katabi ko... si del .. kababata ko syah... kaya medyo ok na ung mood ko...sge blog nakakahiya baka mabasa ni del...bka isipin nya crush ko syah...

amng lungkot ko ngyun

hay....

"But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I'm just not the one for you"
-hale

dragmedown

Monday, February 06, 2006

trouble

trouble

My Precious